Questions asked in the middle of the night.Do you think of me, when you can't sleep at night? Do you see my face behind a wall of glass, can you hear my name when you toss and turn? Does my memory, haunt you at night, or does my presence go unnoticed? Am I alive or dead, when the thought enters your head?
Am I just another face lost among the connections in your mind? Or am I something else? A light or darkness, I cannot answer for myself for I am not you, I haven't been apart of this for quite some time, I cannot read the stars like I once could. Does the moon haunt you? So many calls made under it's light, It sometimes makes my heart flutter, but then I realize that the story ended, so long ago. Another page has been turned, a brand new book for us to write on our own. Don't let it burn. Don't let it fall apart like ours finally did, don't let it burn. Don't let it burn.
Annie'I love you, I always have.. goodbye Mercer.'
The last words she ever said, the final breath laid upon my shoulders, how could I have been so blind? How could I have watched her waste away? I could have saved her, could have avoided the undying pain! Annie Fisher! Oh why'd you have to go, why'd you have to go!? Ive been staring at your name, expecting you to call! You were doing just fine, they had you stable amd recovering! But fate had other ideas! And as you took your final breath I begged, I cried and screamed, NO PLEASE DON'T GO! It echoed off the walls, and shot down the halls, not a single word was said, not at all and now you're dead. Where have you gone!? Annie Fisher! Is it pleasant, is it friendly are you still in pain? Oh please come back I can't live without you Annie Fisher!
Death takes us all, but you were too damn early! Life cut short by a freak accident and now you're gone!
I simply cannot name this.Am I insane!? Am I a product of imagination!? Am I a man, or a beast!? A heartless mondter without remorse!?
Questions rip through my cortex, vital signs shutting down! I am dying! Doomed to fade away, life no longer worth living!
Take a bite of my heart, indulge yourself on my bloody fluid! Tear my lungs from my ribs, do not allow me to scream! Let your anger flow over me! Maybe that's what you need! A release.
I used to say everything ends, even the pain, the loneliness, but I was wrong! There is no cure for this virus!
What do you care.What do you care!? What is my suffering to you!? My pain is not your own! In fact I never want to hear, you're fucking pleads for help! What have you ever fucking cared!? You sold me out to save yourself! Yeah! Ruin! Left it all to crumble! Forsaken! Not even god can save this! Forgotten and I do. Not. Care!
Bitter thought and I will spit in the faces of the wicked, Now what do you care!? What is my hatred to you!? My aggression is only a means to an end! Your cowardice has brought you hear! Now how can you just turn away, like I never existed!? Men like you kill, men like you destroy! So what the fuck do you fucking care!? What the fuck do you think you can do!? Just leave without consequence!? Who the fuck do you think you are!? A worthless waste of flesh, a powerless child with no way to the end! No better than the woman who walks the streets in the night!
And I'll ask you one more fucking time!
What in the fuck DO YOU CARE!? WHAT IS MY SUFFERING TO YOU!? MY PAIN IS NOT YOUR OWN! WH
AlphaThe black wolf crept alone through the dark night sky, but something had changed. No longer was his tail tucked between his legs, or his ears lied flat against his head. Instead, his scars had faded, his wounds finally sealed after an eternity of bleeding. With his head held high he returned to his pack, his scent radiating power, strength, and an un ending will to survive. His growl was lower, his teeth sharper, compassion heightened. This was no longer the former Omega, bowing to his emotions. Amber eyes glowed brightly with life, and a will to keep living. Sitting back on his haunches he let out a howl. Not one of sorrow or defeat. But one of strength, power, and a dare to contest him, a summoning for a companion to meet him once again in a familar place.
The alpha stood tall, taking control of his pack once more. The alpha had returned. He wasn't goin anywhere.
What have we become?Sea of faces never seen before, voices echo from the obscure, and into my hell I descended, totured soul, ripped and torn from the comforts of mortal life, nothing left to crawl through the bloody waste, subjected to endless torment, this is no longer a happy place! A prison, built to keep us in! Keep us dark, remove our individuality! Failing systems slowly crash, secrets leak through the seams, cracking at the foundation our "society" turns the other cheek, more focused on whoever did what in the news tonight!
I'd Rather Be DeadYou're always asking me if I had anything worth dying for.
I'll pose the opposite to you and ask you this:
"Why is it that you find life to be worth living?"
Is it so interesting to go through each day feeling anxious?
To the point that you feel nauseated enough to collapse.
Is it so joyous to spend each night staring at a blank ceiling,
Hearing the clock tick on toward morning,
And yet you lie awake.
Tired, but awake, emotionless, but awake...
Do you truly get up each day, facing it with optimism.
Or do you look at the news and the state of the world,
And genuinely fear for your safety?
Now, if it were me that you had asked my dear,
I'd tell you quite honestly: That I'd rather be dead.
At least I would not have to hear the white lie inside my head.
That tomorrow will bring me a 'better' day...
But of course, you are welcome to believe that.
Bully You're ugly.
You'll never amount to anything.
No one will ever like you.
If you think he'll stay, you're mistaken.
You have no friends.
People hate you.
You are a freak.
You have no place here.
You are nothing more than a coward who
is too afraid to step outside half the time.
Your face is like something from a horror movie.
No one will ever truly fall in love with you.
Guys want girls that are beautiful and face it,
you are considered everything but that.
Hide behind your hair dye because you want to
feign like you don't care.
But inside the cruel eyes of others burn holes into
You will never amount to anything.
The only thing you will ever be good for
is cleaning up dog shit.
You will never be good enough.
Why bother even dreaming?
How can you consider the possibility of love
when everything you do, the way you look, walk,
talk, move, think, can only ever be seen as
Not only is the outside hideous;
the inside is no better.
Why do you think you've
Stripping MeYou may take what you want from me,
Be it my pride or dignity.
You may throw insults at me,
And burn the shredded pieces of my sanity.
You may belittle me, as much as you want,
If only to make your meager life worth living.
But even if you do all that...
No one will protect you when I pull you into the dark.
No one will try to search for you, as my leather ropes tie you down.
No one will hear your screams as metallic screws drive into your face,
Etching an eternal smile, since you'll never leave this place...
"Now then, my dear sweet James, shall we play our favourite game?"
We Only Live To DieThis is what we live for—these whispers on our lips
The drying bits of blood on our paper-cut fingertips
Opening the letters that we left our future selves
A bittersweet reminder of those storybooks on the shelves
This is what we live for – this emotion in our souls
The torture and the bittersweet moments of lost control
Biting cracked lips with the dirt beneath our nails
These moments of imperfection as our trains of thought derail
This is what we live for – shutting doors and opening eyes
Smiling for a moment, before the tears reveal our lies
This is what we live for, this reality, this life…
This is what we live for,
As we only live
Past Tense BluesWases
So are weres;
And it's the becauses
That make them feel
That much worse.
You're Going to be Okay.It’s not your fault.
It’s not what you deserve.
Don’t think that way,
Because one day,
This won’t matter anyways.
Keep your head held high for now,
I know it hurts,
Words can feel suffocating.
As you feel like your lungs are collapsing,
Under the weight of the pain,
In your chest.
I know it stings,
And it seems like it takes forever for the bell to ring.
As you count down the hours.
But it doesn’t matter.
When you just go home,
To sit in your room alone.
Because words unlike bruises don’t go away.
Once they are said they are here to stay.
And silence is excruciating.
But being in a crowd of violent stares,
Is no better.
So where do you go?
Is the question you’ll never know.
But don’t give up just yet!
Things will not always be like this.
Yes, today seems hopeless.
Tomorrow seems worse.
One more day of hearing another hateful word.
Might make your head explode,
And sometimes you want to drive yourself completely off the road.
You are someone's reason to liveShe had skin like a cactus-
could only hurt
anyone who got
she held what
You have to know pain to....Sometimes you have to fall apart.
You have to bleed out,
In order to have the courage to shout.
Against the darkness.
You have to know what it's like,
To feel disconnected,
To be best friends with your anxiety,
Because it's the only thing to keep you company.
Because you've never felt so lonely.
Even though you're surrounded in a sea of noise,
Which drowns out your voice.
As you choke,
On society's noose
You're afraid to cut it loose.
Because you don't know what others will think of you.
You have to know depression.
You have to know what it's like to be alone.
You have to know what it's like to be silenced.
In order to appreciate breathing,
And to fall in love with colors.
After being blind,
For all of that time.
And only being able to see memories,
In order to appreciate a person's presence.
And the feeling,
When you finally find a friend.
Who will stick with you until the end.
And not judge you for your scars.
But loves who you are.
RapeI am a seventeen year old boy
I have determination in my bright blue orbs.
My smile can calm even the strongest tempest.
My friends are nothing short of amazing,
and my family...well, they are some of the most
supportive people I have in my life.
I'm going to make it big. Have a family,
live in a big house.
I'm going to marry my princess, have money
I'll be happy.
And my children will look up to me,
so will my wife. I'll protect them,
I'll be their role model.
I'll be the grandpa my grand kids love.
I'll live a long life, until it's time for me to go.
And even then, I'll be smiling down, not ready
to really depart from happiness.
I'm a seventeen year old boy,
and my tears stain my ruffled jacket.
I can't smile like I used to, but I try.
But I'm still so lonesome.
Where were the friends that understood me?
Where was the family that supported me?
They try, but I can't let them in.
My future crumbles, my wife vanishes,
my children...their children, drown in the
Everything EndsKeep your chin up, for it always ends. Everything has an end, even the pain, the regret, the loneliness, it always comes to an end, wether its in sight or not, it will come. Don't let the water flow above your head, tread the water in the endless sea, but know that you are strong enough to break whatever chains bind you. Keep your head up you brave soul, the world is not as cruel as you think, and I promise you, I will be there every step of the way. I will catch you when you fall, I will hold you when you stand, and I will fly with you as you soar through the sky. Everything ends, even the sadness, even the excruciating silence, even the things that make you feel without worth, keep your chin up you brave soul. I am here as a simple aid.. and like everything else, I will end, I am simply here to convey you to happiness.. it's up to you to keep me around after you achieve that happiness. I will not influence your choice.